Tell me

 

Do you know it? "Yeah, I'm fine, nothing happens :)" 

In my opinion, this is even worse with social networks - we're sending smilies that we're laughting, and the person we are chatting with have no idea how do we really feel... It's much easier to pretend that everything is fine than in normal face-to-face conversation. But maybe "normal conversation" will be chatting very soon... 

I want you to know, that I'm not one of those people who say that social networks are terribly bad, stupid etc... I'm spending a lot of time on them! It's just that sometimes, I have a feel that I need to talk with someone and no, to send massage to a friend is not enought. 

So, tell me - do you often smile while crying and screaming inside?

Connected to last article...

Just think that Im strong and even-tempered, please

I never want to show my weakness. Do you know that feel? But I found out it's not that good...
It seems like everyone believes I can handle everything. That they can tell me all their problems. But I can't endure everything neither! The result is, that when I have a problem, I dont tell it anyone - no, thats not true. I say it to many people, but I say it like "Hey, you wanna hear a joke? That boy I was dating with just broke up with me. No, it's OK, I knew it would not last a long time... I'm fine, really, thanks.". But when I'm alone, I'm crying for three hours, becouse I loved him. But nobody knows it and I know it's my fault, I haven't told it anyone. But I can't admit to let them know. They can't know that I'm broken and dragged down, that I'm depressed, sad and lonely. I should be the one who is fine and OK all the time!

Hey!

Hey,
maybe it would be a good idea to write something for the beginning. Just one problem, Im not sure what. So, I'll tell you what this page will be about.
I always thought that my problems are different than the other's ones. But I know its stupid to think that and all times I'm finding pictures or quotes which characterize me. Me and many other people, of course. So this is what this blog will be about - thoughts, quotes, pictures, maybe my opinions... And also, that its just stupid to commit suicide. I guess that never its that bad to do it.
So let the blog begin! :)

(and sorry for my English, its not my mothertongue)